where the heck is my brain?

I have been very very lazy about writing.

My brain has been at worK;
The class I am teaching has kicked my ass. In the analysis of my stress, I realize that i have been treating every lecture like a performance. Uh, not a good idea. I am a good lecturer. I just need to get over my damn self. I am also trying to pack WAY to much info into a lower division course. I need to take a frickin' chill pill...

But something interesting happened during the lecture yesterday. i was trying to point out what FANTASIA (yes the Disney film) is important. It is innovative. I found myself realizing that I want to blend new forms in my work and that Disney also faced an uphill battle with the press about accepting new conventions...

My brain has been in my uterus:
Why am I not getting preggers? I had a very expensive consult with a doctor in NY and now I have this overwhelming list of tests that need to be performed... I remember the days when I was so paranoid I'd get knocked up...
If we can get down to the root of the problem - I will be happy. Unexplained infertility is NOT an answer. So off I go to get proded...

My brain has been with my daughter:
Pure joy. Now if I can just get her away from the tv...

being led by one nostril

I popped into my old work on Monday. I am doing a contract from them this fall and i wanted to get more information about it.

And basically they were feeling me out about coming back... in a lesser position... but it would be less hours and less responsibility... and less money. It was not an offer. And there were many "well, if everything goes as planned with the budget." Yeah. I believe I have heard that song and dance before...

I said I would entertain the idea.

But, I'm not thinking about it now.

Nope.

Not.

love other bloggers

Check this out:
http://childillustration.blogspot.com/

great little house

In the past week, we have had many new visitors to our house. The husband and I go through various periods of house envy... buyer's remorse... etc. Lately, we have just been depressed that the house is too small and that we will not be able to move for at least 5 years in this economy...

The first wave of visitors was family. Husband's family who have BIG home, high income jobs, and impeccable taste. They loved our place.

Today a friend came by to snag some river rock from my yard (we're starting a new landscaping process). He thought the house was a "great little house."

You know what, it is.

rains and pours

I started teaching this week... technically it is part time (given the pay) but it is a job.

For the last two months it has been incredibly hard to be motivated to do anything - really.
I have been prepping for the class, reading books, etc. But now that the actual teaching has begun - I want to write. Which is what I SHOULD have been doing for the two months I was unemployed...

I wrote a little in that window. But didn't come near to completing any project.

Heavy sigh...

Okay. Tomorrow's lecture is short since I get to show film after film after short film.... yes!
Friday is about the play.

I have a deadline of giving a friend a new draft on Monday - so i need to kick my own ass...